I don’t know what happened. It seems to happen to a lot of bimbos.

I got to overwhelmed and crashed.

I don’t know if its just not looking the same as the girl I want to be, or if its that my brain still points out every little thing I should be stressed out about? Is it that I don’t know how to be free of the nagging voices of other people?

Does there someone who pushes you just a little farther as you get to a certain point? Is that what I need? I feel like I’ve asked that 100 times and each time I can never let go completely. I always need to be in control.

Thats kinda frustrating.

I’m trying to pull myself together. I have a lot of fliming to do, as well as camming and such. Hopefully I can get myself where I need to be again soon.