I have no idea what I was writing this blog about.
I have in my notes “permission” and I think it was in reference to something I saw ages ago about permission to cum and giving that permission to someone humliating like an ex or several. Then of course my desperate need to cum would make me do terrible things at the hards of my mean exes.
My ex was terribly abusive and did not like me to be a bimbo, so thats not a real possiblity.
I don’t even like being humiliated, so I’m not sure why it stuck out to me. Maybe I’m still trying to find a way to get wilder and wilder in public.
I guess this can still be done in a safe space with a person who I can trust.
I don’t know what else to say about it, its probably too much to think about for me now.